Liebster Award 2019

Liebester award
A thank you to Bloke from A Guy Called Bloke and K9 Doodlepip! for gifting to me of the Liebster Award. He is one of the bloggers that I wake up and go scrolling for. His blog is the “google” of amazing bloggers. I can’t tell you how many amazing pages I have run across that’s to his interview. The fact that he helps promote us and brings us together is the kindest thing I have seen so far. Thank you Bloke for making me feel special!

Liebester award

What is the Liebster Award?
The Liebster Award is an award that exists only on the internet and is given to bloggers by other bloggers. The earliest case of the award goes as far back as 2011.
Liebster in German means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome.
The award is a way to be discovered but also to connect and support the blogging community. A great idea in promoting your own blog and others.
For more about the Liebster Award, and the competition Jack runs which goes with the gifting, please visit – The Global Aussie: The Official Rules of the Liebster Award 2019

Liebster Guide Lines
Thank the person who gifted you, and add a link to their blog.
Add the logo of the award to your post and a link to the creator of this blog award – The Global Aussie: The Official Rules of the Liebster Award 2019
Write a paragraph about what motivates you in life (not just in blogging).
Answer the 5 questions given to you.
Gift 3 blogs that you feel would enjoy receiving the award.
Create 5 questions for those you have gifted the Liebster Award to.
No one gifted is under any obligation to respond, should they so desire not to – they can choose to simply accept this compliment from my blog to yours.

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What motivates me in life?
It is simple really, being better than I was yesterday so that I have a better tomorrow. The thought that one day I will be able to look back and say all my hard work has finally paid off motivates me. 

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Rya from Miss Rya’s blog

Mary from OMG RYRY

Themiddlehuman from The Middle Human


Thank you ladies for simply being you.
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My 5 Answers
Why do we enjoy asking questions that we know may not have an answer because of the very nature of a person’s free will and both opinion and belief?
That question is so twisted it almost had me thinking you took a trip in my mind and got lost. We ask questions not always seeking an answer, instead to hear the answer its self.
Why are so many people keen to believe in something rather than nothing? In so far as is it easier to believe in a God, or life after death or whatever because to not have anything to believe in, means that once we are dead there is absolutely nothing?
I believe that by a person believing that there is something else gives them peace or hope. To say that a person just simply dies and there is darkness would be sad.
Do we really have free will or is it purely an illusion we have created to think we are our own people?
We do not have free will that is a joke. Another one of those things that helps a person sleep at night. We elect a government to handle what we don’t want to deal with and to maintain order. With that comes secrets and if a mad scientist wanted to they could pick anyone of us to do human testing on and we would have to go along with it. A government funded mad scientist that is.
What decisions or actions have you made in your life that have had the longest reaching impact and consequence on your life?
Not taking my college classes seriously in 2011, therefore not graduating.
What would happen if it was proved beyond a shadow of doubt that God did not exist, but life in an extra-terrestrial form did?
Then people would start to believe in extra-terrestrial forms and they would be Gods, There will always of some way or another be a God. People need something/ someone to give them hope or peace of mind.

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My 5 Questions
1. What is your worst fear?
2. If you could go anywhere for a paid vacation, who would you take with you? Why?
3. Could you be trapped in the house with your immediate family for a week?(no internet, no TV, no outside communication…Trapped)
4. What is something you have learned in the last week?
5. If you could close one fast food chain down forever, what would you pick?


TMI Tuesday #8

  • When you have experienced sexual difficulty, how did you overcome it? The only think difficult is figuring out what to do/try next.
  • How do you like to reconnect with your significant other? Not sure, guess ive never paid attention to my actions.
  • “It isn’t what you do, it’s the way that you do it.” How do you like to be done? 🤫 a secret I cant confess.
  • If you are not married, are you ready for it? What makes you say that? I’m sure id be a good wife but no WE aren’t ready. We still fight over which way the wind blowing.

Bonus: “It’s complicated.” In what way does this describe your current (or most recent) relationship?

Me being head of household makes things seem complicated. The minor set back in life puts stress on any relationship.

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Vanity (Pride)

Pride relates more to our opinion of ourselves; vanity, to what we would have others think of us.

All hell broke loose on 9/29/19. In my family growing up my dad was always the type of parent to demand respect. He even went as far as telling me “you may not love me, but you damn well going to respect me”. This went along with no talking back, under your breath, and even raising your voice was out of the question. Still till this day we still hold a level of respect that stops us from cussing in front of him. Only on this day it was different.

My dad had called me and my boyfriend over to help on a business case. He is not TEC savvy so every once in a while I help him out. For a while now we were going over my dad’s house around 6 pm and leaving at 1-2 am. When we leave my dad’s house we go to my boyfriend’s mother house. Can you imagine your kid showing up to your house at 2 am in the morning waking you out of bed becausethey don’t live there and don’t havea key? His mother and husband, Husband more than anything asked us nicely to stop showing up to their house so late. To try to show his parents respect I would try to get my boyfriend to leave my dad’s house at 11pm each night. This never happened! Ugh! My boyfriend was perfectly ok with annoying his own parents just to hang out with my dad and drink. It would be a dragged out process of my begging my boyfriend to leave for a hour straight if not longer before we actually made it out the door. Not to mention that by time we did leave I was left looking like the party pooper, who did not want to spend any time with my dad. Normally the fight would stay between my boyfriend and I, only this day my dad jumped in.

Instead of getting to my dad’s house at 6pm like normal we showed up at 4pm and he wasn’t home. We sat listening to his fiancé talk about her week while my dad was off cutting a tree down. For the next couple of hours he was running in and out the house going to the neighbor’s house. It was probably around 6pm before he sat still and started telling me about the case he wanted my help with. By this time he had a beer open and not paying any attrition to the case I was working on so I packed my laptop up. Like if you call me over to work on something I expect you to tell me what you need of me and to make sure I’m doing what you ask, to your liking. Whatever fine. So we sit there while they guys drink and play dominos. I had no eaten that day and got nothing done with the case. So when the clock struck 11 I started my normal, “Are you ready to go yet?” This like most nights turns into a fight, my dad jumps in and basically takes over the fight between my boyfriend and I. So here my dad is yelling at me and calling me a child, while mocking me in a baby voice when I asked “why do I have to stay here”. Keep in mind that I got there at 4pm for a case and now its 12am. I’m grown, I drove us here. The fact I could not leave or that my boyfriend didn’t care to respect his own parents like always was just blowing my mind. My bestie was like “just leave him there”. That is just not in me to take off in my boyfriend’s car and leave him at my dad’s house. I was soooo tempted that day but I didn’t. He was drunk and it just felt wrong to leave him drunk. Which, you can imagine that that was making me even angrier to be trapped.

Anyway so me and my dad stood there yelling at the top of our lungs while my boyfriend sat there watching. I’m sorry but if your Spouse/partner/significant other wants to leave their OWN parents house to the point its causing a fight between everyone than its time to get up and leave. My dad’s thing is in trying to respect one household I end up disrespecting another. To me if we got up and left at a respectful hour then we could leave and respect both households. Here is one better for ya, we could go home at 2am instead of to his mother house. Another story for another time tho.

With Pride being my second biggest sin it took me two months before speaking to him. It stopped me from even wanting to admit that I was in the wrong for cussing and yelling at him. I knew that my dad would not call to check on me and that made me not want to check on him. My brothers came down for thanksgiving and begged that we showed up for dinner. So for them I showed up and my dad walked over and gave me a hug. I play the day over in my head and get disappointed all over again.

TMI Tuesday #7

It’s TMI Tuesday. They ask, I simply answer!

  1. What qualities do you like and dislike about yourself?

I dislike that I am a hot head and procrastinate a lot. Like…. hmmm still figuring those out.

  1. If you had the chance to rename yourself, would you? If yes, what would be your new name?

No, at this point I like my name.

  1. Tell us one thing you wished had not happened in your life?

I wish I was focused on college the first time around so that I would have multiple degrees by now or in the career choice that makes me want to get out of bed in the morning and play hookie

  1. Have you ever been in a secret relationship? Why was it secret?

Depends on what we consider a secret. Does being 16 and hiding your relationship from your parents count.

  1. You must create a rumor about yourself, what is the rumor?
  • I have five degrees business, social work, child development, psychology, and criminal justice.

Bonus: What would you do if you had 1 million U.S. dollars?

Buy a house, and start the truck company that my wanted so I have something to remember him by when he is gone and make him happy knowing one of his dreams came true.


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For the most part my cousin gets back to me fairly quickly. However there are days that go by and I do not get a response back. I would text her then message her on Facebook just to make sure it isn’t my connection or something. Finally I decided to just ask if she was busy more now. Let me remind you she has three boys the oldest is nine and the youngest is two. Not to mention sometimes work two different jobs.

“With my depression I isolate myself from everyone. I read my messages and in my head I reply, but in reality I don’t because I never want to talk to anyone. I try to start conversation with people so it doesn’t seem like I’m acting funny but I never finish the conversation,” replied back.

It made sense when I started to think about it. For days my messages would go unanswered while her Facebook would read as active. I picture her sitting on the couch scrolling online without really seeing anything. The medication she takes is not always strong enough and the depression comes in waves. Sometimes the waves are heavier than the next. I now understand why sometime she finds herself withdrawn from the world.

The picture above I sketched out a couple years ago from a picture I seen on Facebook of the girl sitting there alone and trapped in her own head. This picture I dedicate to my cousin because although I will never really understand whats going on from experience I am still here. When everything starts to get dark and you don’t know how to get away from yourself. I’m here.

Almost 10 years ago.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

“Paragraph Two

Arthur and I have decided to collaborate on a project combining his photography with my poetry. The idea (initially) is for each of us to come up with 10 topics for the other person who will then take photos/write poetry in relation to said topics. Then Arthur will send me the photos he took and I will write in response to those photos, in turn I will send Arthur the poetry I wrote and he will then take photos to compliment the writings. When we have them all finished we will most likely figure out some intricate way of displaying them together and then Arthur intends to bind them in a hand made book and I plan on building a blog around the entire project.

Arthur of course sent me 18 rather than 10 topics. I believe I am going to (attempt) write about all 18 and then choose 10 of those 18 to include in the project. I originally sent Arthur only 10 topics (as we had agreed) but I have come up with 8 more so that he will have the same option to choose the 10 he prefers.

The topics Arthur sent to me are as follows:

1. Solitude
2.City Limits
4.Bright Light
5.Through the Haze
6.In a Nutshell
7.Around the Clock
8.Ocean View
10.Putting on Airs
11.Blood, Sweat and Tears

The topics I chose for Arthur are below:

1.Spiritual Warfare
2.Somewhere in the City
3.This American Life
4.In Reverse
5.Internal Dialog
7.The Body is a Temple
11.The Messenger
12.Total Loss
14.Deus Ex Machina

I would be much more confidant in the success of this project, the completion of this project even if I still wrote well enough to warrant a project involving poetry…We’ll see how it goes. (Carrie, “Paragraph Two”, 2009)”

Carrie and Arthur’s project never was completed. So I decided to start working on their list. However instead of poetry ill be writing.

C. (2009, August 18). Paragraph Two. Retrieved March 29, 2019, from

TMI Tuesday #6

Fill random curiosities, play TMI Tuesday.

  1. What curse word do you use the most?

Damn… idk it just pops out.

  1. Would you rather take a picture or be in a picture?

I love taking pictures more than being in them.

  1. Has anyone ever called you lazy? Why did they say that?

No. I overwork myself.

  1. Have you ever dated or slept with a neighbor? How did things turn out?

No Ive lived in the country so I didnt have neighbors.

  1. Have you ever broken up with a significant other then “cheated” with that same person while they were in a relationship with someone else?

Yes, so sad but yes. Young and dumb.

Bonus: Tell us something good.

I passed both my classes last semester!!!

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